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Heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid

To fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt

Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)

I have died everyday

waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

Time stands still

beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything

Take away

What's standing in front of me

Every breath,

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)

I have died everyday

Waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought

Your heart to me

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

One step closer

One step closer

(Chorus)

I have died everyday

Waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid,

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought

Your heart to me

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

Beautiful Friday

When Friday comes, I often – insensibly – exclaim ‘Thank God it’s Friday!’ 

But never did I mean it as much as NOW. Seriously, I really thank God today’s Friday. I thank God for this beautiful day. For a long time, I never ended a week this awesome! I can no longer remember when was the last time I concluded the week this great. 

Why not?

The sea breeze that kisses my cheeks wakes me up; the smile of the rising sun welcomes my sight, and the laughter of dear friends at such early hour warms my soul.

What a beautiful way to start the day!

The sentimental-me takes the day. Now, I am being reflective and thankful.

I feel like my heart would burst with so much gratefulness. 

Our God is a wonderful and great God. He simply knows what's best and not for us. And Oh! I so love and always am grateful on how He arranged people in our lives. Our every encounter is a blessing and has a purpose.

I love my parents so dearly.  Though I never grew up with a ‘normal’ family (I cannot straightly define what a normal family is, all I know is just ours isn't normal) but never did I wish to have different parents. God has a purpose for putting me in this circle.

My sister, she’s my best friend and enemy as well. I cannot imagined how lonely and alone my life would be if she were not born. As for now, she’s the reason I am fighting. 
Without her, what purpose would I have in this world?

Oh! Man, the highlight of my day. There is no moment in a day that I never think of him. 
I thank God so much for directing his path to mine. I’m praying that our paths must NOT be like a line tangent to a circle. 
Fingers-crossed.

Them. They are the people who care and the people I love. 
I cannot name them all for they are many. But surely, their names are uttered in my prayers. 
You guys are the showers from heaven and the light from sun to my garden, you nourish my very soul. 
You make my life more beautiful. 

Friendship. This is such a wonderful blessing. 
All the time we are surrounded by people, but being surrounded by friends, I mean real friends, is comforting but rare. 
And I am so blessed to be standing in the middle of warmth friendship. 
It is beyond nice  to be with people who accept you for what and who you really are. 
Laughing until tummy hurts is amazing. I would like to special mention Shyr, John and Jayson, you guys are like raindrops suspended in the sky. 
You scattered the plain white light to rainbow! 
And not only that, you also join me jump and laugh on the clouds.

CKC. Wew! I am thankful I am in CKC. FOR MANY REASONS. Aside from being my feeding bowl, here I found a second home. Somehow, CKC saved me from snake pit many times. I am always grateful for that.

I have so much to thank for. But I just have to cut it here; because if I am going to write them all, this list would not end and I must be writing my whole life.

Another realization I got from that reflective moment I just had…

Last night was like a break-away from a noisy world. I just realized it was all I needed after all. I've been lame and lazy for the past days. I feel so depreciated, uninspired and unmotivated. I feel tired even doing nothing. I was stagnant like chains were tied at my feet and stopped me from moving.

Now, I am revived!

Plus I got to visit Mama. This adds another happy and lighthearted feeling. 

Another plus! The happy-edgy jitters I’m feeling. I am so excited for Christmas! A family whom we will be spending Christmas this year is the earliest Christmas gift I received. 

I've been crossing out dates on my calendars, so looking FAST forward to meet and hug the pillows prepared for me. I just got the news that they’re all set to see me! (smiles)

Family, as always, is the ‘bestest’ best gift I’d always want to have. And God never failed to give me that. Oh! I must be a good girl. 

December 1 na gayud! Pasko na hapit.

Much love received, much more to give!

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I got a text message from The One (hopefully) asking who's that dude with me on the picture.

What picture? I asked. Then checked my facebook.

I posted several pictures. He never liked any. Even one.

I was tagged in a picture. I and a boy (space) friend. He liked it.

I dunno. My heart just skipped a beat.

Is he kinda jealous or what?

And oh! I smiled.

It's cute. My heart inflated.

Oh boy! Worry no no.

Miles apart are we but here in my heart you reside.

You won't lose me.

And I won't let you go. 


I LOVE YOU SO Private B!

Quirkiness

When it rains, bring an umbrella.

Behind every cloud are other clouds.

Better face danger than die as an old maid.

Eat danger for breakfast and defecate happiness.

Risks and dangers give life life.

You’ll never see what's on the other side if you won't cross the boundary. If the door is closed, climb on the window or jump over the fence!!!

If Only, Instead

If only I could paint a rainbow in the sky, I would.

If only I could stop the rain, I would.

If only I could shift the storm, I would.

If only I could catch the wind, I would.

If only I could push the air, I would.

If only I could bend the tree, I would.

If only I could reverse the time, I would.

If only I could stop the pain, I would.

If only I could cut the distance, I would.

If only I could fly, I would.

If only I could walk in the beam of light, I would.

If only I could touch the sun, I would.

If only I could fish the star, I would.

If only, I would.

Instead…

I will make a rainbow in my world.

I will dance in the rain.

I will sleep and eat and cuddle until the sun will come out again.

I will sail with the wind.

I will blow the air.

I will climb up and down the tree.

I will live my now and laugh my past away.

I will smile and kiss the pain.

I will enjoy the travel.

I will walk with a happy heart.

I will light my every steps and footprints left behind.

I will wrap people with love and tenderness.

I will make every moment counts.

When it’s hard to breathe through the nose,

Mouth brings into play.

Life is not easy; it never was and never will.

Savor the sweetness and sourness of it to unearth bliss.

Nosy Life

Sometimes I feel low for having less than what I wanted to have. But never did I feel unblessed. 

I am and will always be grateful to God for arranging my life this way.

Things, events and people in our lives do not just come and happen by chance. Every angles and sides of life has a reason and purpose. You fall for a reason. You slip for a reason. You fail for a reason. You hurt for a reason. You smile for a reason. You love for a reason. You live for a reason. And surely, you’ll die for a reason and with a purpose.

Some things, though, happened not the way we wanted them to be. And sometimes, which is so unlikely, we tend to put the blame on others. We find it hard to accept the failure and pain, so we resort on pointing the faults to others rather than embracing the misfortune.

Twenty-four years of existing and ten years (more or less?) of being responsible (aherm!) and independent (chos!) and almost two years as “head-of-the-family”, which now -only- consist of I and Sobil, taught me one thing: YOU BREATHE THROUGH YOUR OWN NOSE. 

Sounds funny and quirky, isn’t it? 

Yes, you breathe through your own nose. You cannot use someone else’s to take in oxygen nor in giving off carbon dioxide. Obviously, you live because you let yourself live – you breathe, you choose to live. When life gets tight and tough, when nose is clogged, you find it hard to breathe. You may take meds or use inhalers to ease the hitch – this is what we call assistance. Medicines and inhalers are our friends and the people who care. You cannot survive life without them; but, cynically, you yourself control your breathing.

The quality of life you’ll have depends on how you manage your breathing. When it’s hard to breathe through your nose, use your mouth! Please don’t die with just a simple cold. Survival is all about how you manage your strength. When getting weak, lean on your faith!

Breathe calmly. Breathing is an involuntary process; it is design that way. So, don’t try to hold your breath nor control it. Let it happen naturally. Pre-controlled life is but boring and ugly, and forced happiness is dry and exhausting.

And hey! Have you noticed the hairs in your nose? They’re called cilia – and they’re like our family and loved ones. What are those hairs for? They filter the air that we inhale. They screened and blocked colloidal particles suspended in the air. Somehow, they protect us from getting sick. Like our family and loved ones, they will do whatever, wherever, whenever and however they can to shield us from harm. Oh well! I thank God for giving me many nose hairs. 

Conversely, you cannot choose what time of the day or a specific place you will breathe, can you? No, you can’t. Same thing with your encounters in life; you cannot choose only those in favor and pleasing to you, you also have to, inescapably, smell and inhale the unwanted rubbish.

Good thing is air is everywhere!

Life is full surprises, and usually this is reason enough to stay positive during stressful times. Good things are right around the corner!

Smell the fragrance of life and breathe happiness and peace!
LET US BREATHE LIFE!