like a bird

When I'm free, I've got nothing to lose.

Sometimes having too much of what you want can make you paranoid. You are too afraid that someday you might lose any of it. And with that feeling, you tend to be so over possessive, unknowingly you are smothering them to death.

On the other hand, having none is like a bird. Flying aimlessly in the wilderness. Just enjoying whatever's on the way. No worries. No fears of losing something.

I just love this feeling. Oh, I wanna be a bird forever. :))

mushy messy thingy

I know I am not so in tune with myself when my stuffs are higgledy-piggledy tossed everywhere.

And I just realized that it has been like these for more than a month.

WEW! Now I'm feeling that I have gathered myself back, so I'm up for a general cleaning.

I think this place needs to be overhauled.

Ice cold coffee for an energy boost. XOOM!

I've been adrift for quite some time and now I am on the edge of an abyss. I don't know if this is better.


Oh, I'm lost in the middle.
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I am lost.




I've done things I am not proud of.


How I wish I could undo them. But I can't. 
I'm trying to forget as much as deal with them.


But the situation always comes back like a boomerang. It's the same old story again.


This scenario is hellish. This feeling of nothingness is absurd.


How can I go away from here?


I don't like this person I am now. unorganized. lame. heartless. useless.

I want to change. 

To be someone else but this unorganized, lame, heartless and useless person.

I will be.  So help me God.

And my prayer, too!

Cat's Prayer

I hope I'm not asking too much, Lord;
All I want is a home of my own,
And to know when my next meal is coming
Instead of the scraps I get thrown.
I've been out in the cold for so long now,
Just coping as best as I can;
But it's not been so long I've forgotten
The touch of a soft caring hand.
I look in house windows at Christmas,
As cats doze by the fire, quite replete;
How I'd welcome a box in the kitchen,
And tasty food for me to eat.
For me there was tinsel and giftwrap,
But the fun didn't last very long.
They put me outside with the rubbish;
I still don't know what I did wrong.
I really don't want to be greedy;
At the moment I'm all skin and bone,
So would it be too much to hope for
That someone will give me a home?

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