I've been adrift for quite some time and now I am on the edge of an abyss. I don't know if this is better.


Oh, I'm lost in the middle.
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I am lost.




I've done things I am not proud of.


How I wish I could undo them. But I can't. 
I'm trying to forget as much as deal with them.


But the situation always comes back like a boomerang. It's the same old story again.


This scenario is hellish. This feeling of nothingness is absurd.


How can I go away from here?


I don't like this person I am now. unorganized. lame. heartless. useless.

I want to change. 

To be someone else but this unorganized, lame, heartless and useless person.

I will be.  So help me God.