it hurts, ya know!

Are you hurting, too? ;p

Hmmnn...

Have you ever experienced standing in front of a crowd hamming up the best performance of your life, you were so engrossed and your energy was escalating and with all your passion you just close your eyes and let your heart dance and sing with so much life and zeal, and you hear them scream, shout, cheer, clap and all, and you opened your eyes and found out that they were not looking at you?

Ako, di pa. Di naman ako nag-audition sa PGT. Di rin ako nakapag-audition sa PBB.

This, in my life, is just a hypothetical situation. It may or may not happen to me.

I'm giving Showtime a second thought, though. HAHA :D

Pero di nga. Let's go back to the hypothetical situation. If this happens to you, how would you react? What would you feel? You wouldn't be happy, would you? Mahihiya ka na di mo maintindihan. Para kang baliw nagnganga-ngawa mag-isa. Now, let us give the situation another twist. What if your passive audience are the people you expected to listen to you, to cheer for you, to scream your name and clap for you, the people who're suppose to support you no matter what it takes, the people who are close to your heart, your family. Or the people you consider as your family for you no longer have your own. Magda-drama ka pa bang galit ka kung ang totoo'y nasaktan ka ng sobra?

Anger is different from pain, my friend.

I am not angry, BIRDS. I'm pained. And still hurting.

And this what I realized, You'd never feel the pain unless you love the one who caused it.

And I am very thankful to my boys as always. They always knew when I needed them most. Sweet kisses from them made me feel better and took the sore away.

The orange-tabby cat is Albert Einstein and the white-batcat is Isaac Newton. James Clerk Maxwell was out, busy chasing the waves that travel through space at a speed of light :)